Monday, 13 December 2010

It's amazing what 20lbs can do!

So I got on the scales one cold Saturday morning, lo & behold a 2lb loss!! This brings my total to 20lbs, 1lb off another sticker and 8lbs from my New Year target with 2 more weigh days to go. Fingers crossed for me folks!!!

I've really noticed a difference these past couple of weeks, maybe it's because my dresses are 2 sizes smaller, maybe it's the magic Bridget pants but something seems to have shifted. I'm really happy about it too!

In other news, I have another target countdown- TEXAS!!! Will be flying out mid-March, so here's hoping for my 3 stone sticker before then!! 92 sleeps! That's 10 weeks from when I return from the Vegas. Here's hoping!!

Wednesday, 1 December 2010

I can be good!! haha

-2.5 again this week! yay! Gotta keep it up and hopefully lose another 2.5 next week!!! :) Love how good it's going, and I LOVE how I've ordered 2 new dresses!!!

Tuesday, 30 November 2010

Horrible week

No class this week- had a holiday booked anyway but the effing snow seems to have intervened with all my life plans. I let it off as soon as I get outside though as I can pretend I'm Lucy Pevensie when I walk to work hehe.

Anywho, no fat fighters, but two partays this week (Fri & Sat) so I've got to be incredibly good so I can keep at least 3lbs off during the 14day break! jeez it's been hard this week- and I can honestly say I haven't been my usually good self, but I will weigh myself on home scales tomorrow and record it like I would at slimming world. My weakness this week has been bloody Yorkie brownies! Baked by my sister & aunt which then lead me to make rice krispie cakes for the team at work- one of which I had. Plus I've been having the odd extra slice of bread and maybe more than recommended amounts of cheese! Gah my the snow has frozen my willpower.

I just have to keep thinking to myself, I WILL be good, I WILL be good. Plus I'm having xmas dinner both nights- so I'll have plenty off free food to fill me up without having to have puddings and stuff!!!

Wednesday, 24 November 2010


Loss! -2.5lbs! Brilliant! Being rather good pays off :)

Saturday, 20 November 2010


Today I tried on my Next Denim Skirt with the American Flag print that never quite fit properly without an insanely uncomfortable muffin top.
Today it fits.
I'm a happy bunny :)

Thursday, 18 November 2010


My first gain. 3lbs. That's a lot, and it's upsetting :( Not to be disheartened though I'm going to lose it this week! Even Potter weekend can't get in the way of my 3lb loss!!!
Got myself a food diary again so I plan properly, shop properly and record it properly without having to guess. Even if I have to do this every single day until I'm at target I don't mind. It keeps me in control.

Also (I know I keep threatening too and never follow through but needs must) I'm going to start walking to work. At a guesstimate its probably a 20min journey so I'll have to get up extra early (death) and it will be cold (death) but I want to fit in that New Year dress!!!

Tuesday, 9 November 2010


I'm so mad at myself. I seem to have fallen off the wagon somewhere this week and tonight I told myself 'fuck it' and had a KFC!!!! URGH! Not only did I feel sick afterwards, I want to kick myself as it's weigh day tomorrow! Urgh I can honestly say the KFC tasted mega at the time, but now I feel like shit.
"Nothing tastes as good as being skinny feels"- might get it tattooed on my forehead so I don't forget. I won't be disheartened though, still gonna go to group and get weighed. Day full of Green Tea I feel!!! haha

Saturday, 6 November 2010

Naughty Weekend....

So Thursday and Friday have been a dieting disaster!!!! What with meals with new work colleagues, bonfire BBQs and epic amounts of alcohol digested in the space of 24hours it was all a bit too much! Not only do I feel rather sick this morning, but I'm pining to get back into the healthy swing of things- which can only be a good sign surely!!!

BBQ blowout was a once in a blue moon thing however- if you can't treat yourself every once in a while I don't see the point in losing weight because the more you deny yourself something, the more you crave it. The important thing right now is how ready I am to go downstairs and have a fruit salad breakfast rather than white bread toast covered in butter!

This weekend (well, two days, it's the weekend right now technically lol) has been my worst, food and drink wise; only to be rivaled I assume by Sammi's birthday weekend on the 27th November, which I will be fully prepared for hehe. Now, off for some fruit salad and green tea so the scales have a smile on their face on Wednesday :)

Wednesday, 3 November 2010

The end is near...

So, I logged on to the Odeon website a while ago to double check the times for Harry Potter, and it gave me this horrible feeling in the pit of my stomach. It's almost over, not just the books, but everything, I won't ever get that feeling I had when I stood outside WHSmiths in Mansfield for The Deathly Hallows.
I don't know what I'll feel like on the 19th, but judging by the state of me right now, I can guarantee it won't be pretty. :(

Almost there!

Only 2.5lbs to go now until my 1.5 stone mark!! Yay!!! Things are really looking up! Considering what a bad weekend I had :) Shame it can't be celebrated in group really as I'm always late because of work. Never mind though, I get to hear other people's stories and their *struggle* so it's all good.

Out for dinner like, 3 times over the next week though so no treat tonight! Just 3pepper pesto pasta extravaganza!!! haha (I plan to submit the awesome recipe), might even give you a little pic! hehe

Wednesday, 27 October 2010

Before I go to bed...

Before I go to bed, young ones, I just wanted to share my thoughts on the horrific mess that was the Maura Kelly blog on Marie Claire. As a girl who is trying to combat weight issues, and has been all her life. I'm disappointed. Ignorance and even worse, insults are not the best way to get America's obese population to shape up! It's awful that such a usually prestigious magazine can promote such clear bitchiness about some (well, considering the obesity rates in America, let's go for MOST) of it's target audience.

It's sickening that people do not have the freedom to kiss, make love etc to whom they want to without being judged! We love who we love, and we love them 'just the way they are'. I don't tend to care what the hell people think of me most of the time, but placing the idea in someone's mind that the whole world would be repulsed should I choose to show my affection, just because I'm overweight is something that can plague a girl no matter how confident she may be.

After researching your background, it's clear as to why you're so against the 'fatties' that fill your TV screen and walk past you on the street, you poor woman. However, illness is illness, eating disorders are an illness and you of all people should know that they are not easily overcome, insulting people, especially people who are trying to combat their weight issues is just plain mean.

It is not wrong to be 'fat' and in love, I say if you're happy, then keep it that way because in this day and age happiness is hard to come by.

If I never lost another pound but was able to achieve my ambitions and move to America, fall in love or whatever I would die happy knowing that I was created this way and lived life to the full, with a full stomach ;).

Basically, PIPE DOWN.

A decent loss

I was really naughty and weighed myself on my own scales this morning, said -2lbs, so I was jolly. When I got to fat fighters, lo and behold, -2lbs!! YAY. Finally back on track- let's hope for a bigger loss next week so I can be back on my Vegas target!!!

Wednesday, 20 October 2010

Confirming that fear...

I was genuinely hoping to prove myself wrong in this post, that my body had been deceiving me this week; however it's true. Half a lousy pound off. It's awful, like failing your driving test :(
It's slightly comforting that it's in the right direction I suppose, but this week better show up some better results for all my hard work!!!

Slowing Down

I thought I would post this before I go to this morning's weigh in- just in case I happen to be wrong and can then congratulate myself. It seems the weight loss process has slowed down somewhat these past two weeks.
I don't know if the novelty has worn off, or my body has gotten used to the food intake and refuses to respond, but last week I only maintained my weight and this week doesn't look much better. I can't feel the difference, maybe that's how it's supposed to work, I don't know but I sure hope the scales disagree with how I feel this week.
If not, I may ask for some more food diary sheets, so I can track everything, just to make sure I'm doing this right!

Wednesday, 6 October 2010

14lbs lighter!!

Whoa, lost a HUGE 5.5 lbs this week, which gave me a shiny pale blue sticker for my 1 Stone award!!!! So proud of myself, can't believe how well I've done and how easy it's really been. I just know I can keep it up and have that 2.5 stone sticker tucked away before I hit Las Vegas!!!

Monday, 4 October 2010

shiny purple sticker

So, 8.5lbs lighter and the clothes are starting to look a bit big. Shit. Considering I have £0.00 to buy newbies with!!! hahaha
Getting right into this cooking malarkey, chopping and mixing all over the kitchen! All this experimenting is turning out quite well too. Had a tough week this week though & it's not even weigh day yet! Venturing out on Thursday (though I didn't indulge in KFC) kicked the week off quite badly and since Saturday illness has made crave liquid food, and warm food, which is kind of hard when I've been so into my salads so it's been a jacket potato and soup week!!!
Glad i've got these next couple of days off work so I don't feel incredibly tempted by Roast It! haha I pledged to lose 3lbs this week so I sure hope I get on those scales and it's a job well done! (yn)

Thursday, 23 September 2010

two weeks later!

I am LOVING this diet, I'm not left wanting anything, I find i'm not snacking between meals and I can eat as much pasta as I like! hehe It's showing too, two weeks later and I've lost 7.5lbs, I even got a sticker LOL!

It's all about control, and planning, I have to plan my meals in advance, and I can even eat out as long as I choose a dish with plenty of free food from the menu. Getting back into the swing of things at work has helped me loads too! I'm walking at least 30mins per day and taking my own packed lunch full of whatever I fancy, chicken salads, pasta with tuna, jacket potatoes, carbs galore! hehe

I feel things can only get better, as I'm only just learning!

Tuesday, 7 September 2010

Slimming World Starter

aaargh I'm really nervous! Starting Slimming World tomorrow, found an old friend who already goes so gonna buddy up with her. My aim is 2.5stone in 17weeks for Vegas! I'm thinking super-positive!


Thursday, 2 September 2010

Back to square one.

So the Holiday, followed by Leeds festival and my constant need to party has taken it's toll. Back to square one. Joy.

My new goal however is Vegas, and I DID want to start Slimming World next week, since when I was there at school I lost a substantial amount of weight. However, nobody seems to be feeling it, my aunt says it's too expensive, my cousins go to Weight Watchers and I have seem to run out of fat friends to join me, so there's a chance I might go on my own. I just think it might work better if I have a slimming buddy, someone to kick me in the ass when I consider being bad, and of course to share in the encouragement.

Oh well here goes...

Wednesday, 14 July 2010

Slimfast and Polka dots

After a slight panic about just how little time i have left before my holiday, I've gone to extreme measures. Slim Fast. It's working and it's not boring yet, so we'll keep our fingers crossed!

Thursday, 1 July 2010


So I ordered two. Decided I don't care, I'm going on holiday!!! haha
but will be on a famine until then lawl.

Sunday, 6 June 2010

Wine is good...

So, first week on the DuKan diet and I'm 9lbs lighter!!!! bloody hell I love this diet!
It's a great kick start- I imagine the weight loss will slow down once the diet contiunes (as it's supposed too) but whoa. Awesome.

There are only 2 problems:
I can't stop thinking about chips.
I can't stop thinking about chocolate.

Bad times, but I keep drinking diet coke instead- seems to be helping a lot!
I feel so much better in myself! :)

Saturday, 29 May 2010

new measures

I no longer fit in my skinny jeans. win.
I've had to clear out the majority of my wardrobe. win.
But the weight loss itself has come to a bit of a standstill; I ordered the DuKan diet book- as a last high impact attempt to loose more weight before my holiday. Made a shopping list and everything! Can't wait to see the results.

Sunday, 9 May 2010


After such a good run, +2lbs this week.
I want to die.
So glad I will be able to swim this week, and gym it in general, I'm going to write a timetable on the wall to stick to for the next few weeks- Holiday is only like 3months away!!!! ARGH!!!

Friday, 23 April 2010

eight pounds lighter

So after a week of getting back into the swing of things; albeit without the gym due to unforseen Supernatural circumstances. Got on the scales and lo and behold...-8lbs!!!!!!
Well chuffed. Hope this good luck sticks.
Tattoo tomorrooooooooooooooooooooooooow! <3

Wednesday, 14 April 2010


So I was watching Dreamgirls earlier; omg how effing skinny did Beyonce get? So glad she didn't stay that way- soooooooooooooooo much better being bootilicious!

So I want to simply eat everything again, but I'm not. Salad central at work; though I feel like i'm having a *fat person* week. It's probably because i'm actually trying for a change.

I seem to be drinking loads of water; which on one had is great news, however I feel everyone at work think's I'm insane because I leave the office every 40mins to pee! haha

Started having my Green Tea again in the morning too. I decided I don't have to set off as early for work, so I can sit and have a niiiiice cuppa lol. Also; laughing cow on toast, in jacket potatoes and in pasta is mega. So is pesto. So is cottage cheese. I frickin love cheese- wish it was good for you; though I have to say the lighter mozerella and laughing cow don't taste any different which is mega news.

Right I'm going to drink another eight litres of water hahaha

Tuesday, 6 April 2010


Killing myself on Thursday night seems to have killed the diet.
Scales say -1lb, life says you fuckin tiiiiiiny git.
I haven't stopped eating all weekend, so many easter eggs in this frickin house!!!
Gym session Wednesday and Thursday, determined to keep at it if it kills me!

Thursday, 25 March 2010

back in the game....

Got my concentration head back on this week.
Yummy salt & vinegar rice cakes and tomatoes on toast!!
Even ordered myself some snazzy new gym kit!

Worked out in my favour; scales today say -5lbs high fiiiiive.
I like being back in the game :)

Sunday, 21 March 2010

Sunday 21st March

aaargh completely forgot to blog last week! lol
I lost -1lbs last week
and another -1lbs this week.

Good times.
peace out x

Sunday, 7 March 2010

still on a roll....

-2lbs this week!
That is all I have to say lol

Saturday, 27 February 2010

back on track :)

scales say -4lbs after another kitchen free week!
Been super bad and not had any exercise either. I think it's a week two of fabulous new job fluke. Or maybe it's because my new co-workers make me laugh so frickin much!!!
In all honesty though; I think thanks to eating more regularly, and at the same time each day as gotten my metabolism into a routine.
Wish I could say my sleep routine was the same!!!!!


Thursday, 18 February 2010


is bad
real bad
three takeaways, one week.
New Job- I have managed to stay really good at work, buying things with calorie amounts on them. However; when I get home, it's been takeaway or nothing, as we don't even have any milk!!!
GASH I don't even want to get on the scales in the morning. Only been to the gym once too :( Going to make up for it tomorrow and Saturday though. Gigs are good cardio, and FULL cardio workout on Saturday morning.
I need to sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep. But I also need to watch Eastenders on iplayer hahaha.

Sunday, 14 February 2010

What a week!

week three.
Not the most fantastic week for weight loss, stayed the same!!! :( However I got myself a new job and partied with old friends.
Plus side: new job is round the corner from the gym! So perfect time to go straight after work- and no need for excuses!


Saturday, 6 February 2010

substituting meals for cakes.

Definitely not a good sign.
calories are the same, but nutrients aren't. Really gonna have to watch myself on this. I'm taking serious measures at work; to help my laziness. I've taken a half a pack of 55calorie leek and potatoe soup to work so I don't decide to go to greggs and pig ouuuut.

Also, put some cold new potatoes in the frigde, so I can always make cheese and bacon potatoe salad for a quick fix.


Friday, 5 February 2010

Given it up for Thursday

So my patience is smaller than verne troyers pinkie.
I weighed myself on Thursday AGAIN hehe.
Again; pleasing to my eyes. -3lbs!
That's 9lbs in two weeks. YAYYY!
Chiquitos tonight as a nice treat, no drinkies this weekend so should expect even better results next thursdayyyyy :)

Peace out

Wednesday, 3 February 2010

Lemon Bakewell

Apparantly, they are only 187 calories. They are mega haha.
First time i've been to the gym this week: 30Seconds To Mars is perfect workout music when angry or suffering from some sort of emotional turmoil.

Finding it easier to get my ass to the gym now, if I get ready for the gym as soon as i get up. I have no excuse 2 hours later to say to myself 'I can't be arsed to get ready' etc.

I'm going to the Cinema tonight. aaargh! I know the minstrels will be looking at me, screaming EAT ME EAT ME EAT ME. I've had a late lunch however, so I won't be properly hungry until the film has finished. Let's hope. hahaha I might be a proper geek and take some grapes in my bag with me, Beth will disown my I'm sure. Muhahahaha I'll promise not to get them out, until It's completely dark ready for the movie.

Friday, 29 January 2010


Yay! So I was a teeny bit naughty and decided to weigh myself yesterday, only one day short of the week, but I couldnt resist the urge hehe.
I'm rather glad I did.
-5lbs for week one! High Five. Soooo happy with my result, I put it to the test and weighed myself again this morning: exactly one week since my initial weigh-in. What a shock I recieved to find that, I was actually -6lbs!!! Thats almost half a stone. I can't keep this grin off my face.

It's not an excuse for me to get wasted over the next two days, but boy oh boy will it happen AND i will do it as calorie-low as I can drunkenly manage.
It should be pretty easy tonight as I have exactly 3 bottles of Coors light (at a lovely 88cals per bottle) and will be armed with JD (62 cals per shot) and diet coke (calorie free). I think I can be bladdered under 500 calories.

Tomorrow however, may suffer somewhat. The only thing I can do, is eat as well as possible tomorrow during the day. Whilst sticking to JD and diet coke all night saturday: Shouldn't really be an issue until Tilly *forces* me into the red stripe group.

I think I might nominate Jess to keep me in line and on the spirits, not that I'm sure she'll mind. haha.

Wednesday, 27 January 2010

Emotional Struggle?

So, day three and thanks to booking a holiday with my Uni friends, the gym session didn't occur. I'm not disheartened because of that though, I can't put my life on hold to go to the gym haha. However, the STRESS of booking a holiday just makes me wanna cram that entire packet of chocolate hobnobs into my mouth and stop breathing for ten mins whilst i chew.

I didn't do that though, Green Tea is soothing and takes the edge off of cravings. Soozy is cooking me an awesome meal tonight, in fact I must put a reminder on my phone to fetch some of the ingredients haha.

Back to Holiday booking. YAY more thinspiration.

Peace out

Monday, 25 January 2010

Post One: Week One: Day One.

So i'm counting this as officially day one, of week one of my ultimate weight loss plan. Had a really good kickstart, with an hour work out at the gym putting me in the minus calorie count. Always the perfect way to start the day! Though the gym was pretty busy, everyone must be starting this week! hahaha Or maybe it's because I haven't been for a few weeks I forgot how many people attend the gym.
I must thank Alice for forcing me to go in order for her to borrow my Buffy DVDS.

So, I figured the best way to lose weight is the old fashioned way, calorie counting and exercise. Found 'myfitnesspal' application for my phone, which is awesome, it does the hard work for you, and it's handy because I always have my phone with me! :)You can also access it online, for when my eyes are squinty in the morning or when I'm pissed as a fart lol (not that I plan on calorie counting whilst partying it up, making sure I have plenty to spare beforehand sounds like the more rational plan haha)

The reason I'm doing this is that I tend to lose interest and drive after a few weeks of 'dieting' and I figured talking about it on a regular basis would really keep me in line, as well as making records of my losses (and gains, should there be any religion forbid). I also have my 'thinspiration' as Lucy aptly puts it. I have a side piece tattoo I want to get once I feel comfortable enough to actually show anybody my stomach. I have pictures of it in my room, and my purse, so it's there to remind me. :)

Let's hope tomorrow is as good of a day as today! :)
Peace out